Reaffirmation

I was having a conversation the other day and it made me realize I need to hear "I Love you!" on a regular basis from my man!  I'm not saying that I have to hear it in every conversation...... but I feel I should hear it enough so that I don't have to wonder..... dayum.... does he love me. Does he still love me?

What is the norm?

In past relationships I never had an issue with hearing those words. But as I re re-evaluate my relationship with RBR.... it makes me wonder. He never said it just to say it. And when he did say it ..... it was always followed by something negative like "sometimes!"

I am in the process of trying to figure out what I need in a relationship. My previous relationship before RBR came into the scene was on point. It was not perfect but it was as good as it could get. I would love to have another relationship like that again. Just change a few factors and it would be perfect for me. 

As I compile my list I realize that everything I'm asking for is regular everyday stuff. But it's stuff that RBR just does not do. And it was my fault for making allowances for him. When in reality I needed those little things. It's the little things that count. And even though I felt RBR and I could have made it...... I realize that eventually the little things would have made bigger issues later on in life.

And as I work on this final closure from RBR I am enjoying rehashing our memories.  And wondering how long before I can feel like I have truly moved on from this man. No more back sliding.  ONward and UPward!